In this world of pain and brokenness, we are reminded that the Lord is so close and that he will never leave us nor forsake us. We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm, and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain; We are believers have a faith that will be with us until we die. The Lord gives us hope when we go through the storms and many situations life puts on us. We will sometimes think we are supposed to do this life allow, but we can’t do it all alone in all honesty. God is shaping us, and he is molding us into the man and women of God we are supposed to become. We are growing, and we do not need to be afraid of what comes next because we can have the Love and the determination to keep up with the fight. We will have a day where we want to give up and all we have in our soul an being in the reason to breathe.When we go through a struggle, what is it that allows us to go through the battle is it that fact we know that someone in heaven is with us and that he is giving us the strength to get through the day. Or is it something more, honesty, it is something more. We have so many problems and situations that come to our mind, and we forget the person that has made us and that he loves us, and he cares for us. He is the one that we can call when no one else can hear, and he is the one that is guiding us with every situation and decision we will ever take and make. Thought we would stumble, we can get up and continue to run the race that is set before us. I may be weak, but your spirit is strong in me. My flesh may fail, but my God, you will never will. 2 Timothy 4 verse 2, Preach the word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage–with great patience and careful instruction. Some with that I leave with is that no matter the battle and the season you are in it is the Lord that is with you and he is carrying you through the storm and the fire to allow your heart to grow and also to become stronger by going to the word for direction and also the guiding of him. I hope you reader have a blessed night and I pray that the Lord would guide you through the many seasons of life you will go through.
If I had an idea of what to write about my next blog, it would be about dedication determination and the fact that when you go through trials, it’s testing your faith that produces endurance to finish the race that God has set before you. This past three weeks I have endured so much for the one thing that keeps me going is that Philippines 4:13 is that I can do all things through Christ who gives me the strength in that I don’t have to rely on My Strength, but God can give me the comfort you can give me the fullness, and he can give me the love I need. This past year has been a crazy wine from going to doctors’ visits by dealing with people that I love who have died and inexperienced COVID-19
If I can tell you a glimpse of what’s been helping me the last two weeks it’s been a crazy Joyride it’s been a crazy time of reflection an insane time of just really understanding what the Lord wants to do in my life and that when we rely on our strength, we struggle we will fall. Still, once we rely on heavenly father, he gives us the love in the joy in our hearts and that we do not need to be afraid. I struggle with loneliness because I’m lonely sometimes, and I feel like I’m so combined to myself because I’m an extrovert. I need to have people in my life. Still, in reality, I’m seeing with this whole idea of being sick for the last week I found out yesterday that I have strep throat. I realize that through his time of loneliness, I recognize that God is preparing you for a season of uncertainty, yet I can be faithful in the season, and the Lord will be glorified. I will not understand why people die. I will not understand why there are so many problems in this world. I do take heart because God has overcome the world, and he has given us Joyce. He’s giving us a piece, and he has given us strength Beyond understanding. And that when we take up his cross daily, and we repent of our sin and say, Lord, I am broken, I need you to fill me up till I overflow allow me to be used in a way where I could least expect it but you Lord are using me.
I’m not going to lie. This whole strep throat has been crazy because I want to know why God why would you allow this to happen. Still, I also see through this; he wants to show me that he is so mighty. When I become a missionary that I can rely on the Lord for provision, I can depend on him to heal me I can depend on him for financial support and moral support and people that are willing to talk to me. They’re able to pray for me, and they’re able to give me the support I need right now. That’s what I need. We need people in this world to love and care for us. Like one of my favorite Bible verses as iron sharpens iron, so another man sharpens another, we need to be willing to iron people and encourage. We need to be able to discipline each other we need to be able to say you know what this is wrong this is what you’re doing is wrong let me help you to see what I can help you in a way to do it right and godly and allow you to grow through your mistakes and trials of many kinds.
I’m not going to say that this life is easy; it is hard, and you have to be willing to realize that there’s pain there’s hurt their suffering. Still, there’s a mighty God who is ready to carry your burdens, and he can take your yoke it says to come to me all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest take my yoke upon me and learn for me for my yoke is easy and my burden light. God will take your yoke and carry your burdens too, and he would he uses for his glory.
Do you ever feel like you had a knot in your stomach and you do not know what to do? This season and this month of growth and also a time of truly finding myself and growing with the Lord. You feel like you have the entire world on you and you just want to breathe. You feel like that world has become in a different way. You feel like you are so far but in reality, you just taking so much medicine that it is affecting you.
But then you take a deep breath and you see how the Lord has taken you grow the worse to worse into a place where you are free and you are loved. He takes to the moment for being faithful and being so blessed. You remember how God provided for you to have medicine for your bronchitis. You see how the hand of God was there when you just cry with all your life because he was the only one that could help you to feel better. He is the only one that you can come to. He is the one the is helping you with miss your family. He is the one that is helping you missing someone that you love and care about.
The Lord is the one that is helping you realize that you need someone to love you. But you need a faith that embraces you and calls you loved and chosen.The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still Exodus 14:14. You know the Lord will fight for you but also you just feel worried. But the Lord says do not worry. Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? The Lord is so good to me and he loves and cares so much about me. The little things of life and all other problems I do though in daily life.
Some many times in our lives, we think we will not be able to do something, and we are afraid. But honest, we need to take heart that we are in the Lord’s hands. He has so many great plans for us, and all we need to do is keep trusting. Fear is a lie and will let you think you are not able to do something. But we can do all things in the Lord’s strength; he is the one that gives us the confidence to overcome so many problems of the unknown. So my life has been a season of leaping and just being able to trust him. People in this world are not going to like what we are doing, but we need to keep believing. As I have changed my major, some people will not understand why I have done this. But I am being obedient to what the Lord is telling me to do. I am not going to let someone change me for that. I know the Lord wants me to be able to change the world, one child, at a time.
As time passes though I am reminded of all the situation the Lord was there and he leads me by allowing me to keep the faith. Sometimes we will have a broken heart and we need to see that through the brokenness there is a masterpiece that is coming to be made whole. For me I just want the lord to say well done my good faithful servant. Whatever controls you get rid of it and remove it. We can know the trust, we need to process everything. You either bigger or better. God has given us power and authority.
As I sit in amazement on how the Lord has changed me from being at the University of Valley Forge. I am reminder of all the victory and battle that was fight with the enemy. The first semester find out that did not need a guy to complete me. The second semester finding out that I am a chosen instrument for the Lord. The third semester was a season of being still and not allow people to get to me mentally and physical. The fourth semester taught me to be all in for the Lord and never give up when it was difficult. This semester of spring 2019 has taught me to never forget how it has taken you from and has placed you in a season of happiness and joy. This semester has been a lot of crying and a metal process of going to Him daily. It has also taught me who people are truly are. You are going to lose people, but you are also going far in life with them.
Sitting in the library on my final semester here. I am reminded how every single semester with finals God has allowed me to pass and just keep on trusting in Him. I am also reminded when I first came to UVF I could not right a paper for the life of me and here now I am writing a paper all by myself without anyone else’s help. The Lord has truly taken to heights and adventure I never thought it would he possible all for his glory. I love writing so much it is my life and that is how I let go of all the stress in the world. I am so excited for the next adventure on what the Lord has for me. I am blessed for all the relationship that I have made. UVF will always be in my heart forever. From getting up early in the morning to go to class to going to bed later. To late night runs with friend to eat, to pouring out my heart and soul for a friend that needs it. I am forever blessed and grateful on how the Lord is using me in a powerful way.
If we want to change the world, we need to start with our community of where we live. The University of Valley Forge desire so many things to change, but I feel that students need to take responsibility for all the many things they have. People say that they have changed, they have not in reality. Attending the University of Valley Forge has been a blessing for me. It has allowed me to grow with the Lord every single day and keep trusting in him. There are some days I want to give up, but what keeps me going is that love and passion I want to be able to be a teacher in a place that does not know the Lord. I want to be used as a vessel for the Lord. This University has allowed me to be stretch out in faith and do the impossible. I have been able to trust him in the little things and then he has shown himself great full.
I am reminded of the song different, we need to be able to different. We need to be able to show the world that there is something different in me. I don’t want to spend my life as a pattern. I am giving up all that I have
This year has been a trail in a half. Learning to keep trusting in him in all my life. I have been having a fear of the not know. I am learning to put my entire faith in the Lord no matter what people are going to say to me. I have fear of the unknown of life. I have fear of wanting to be good in this life. In 35 more day my life will be in another season of life. Family is moving to a new state and to be honest i am scared, but also a am very excited for them. I have changed my degree in a new degree because i want to be a mission and share the gospel with the Lost and dieing world the needs Jesus. I have changed it because, i have a desire to help people in a third world country. I want to be able to make an impact in their heart. I have so much patience for them.
I am praying these few months, i continue to keep trusting in him. He has taken me from the fit of hell. He has given me a purpose in life. The Lord has given a so much patience when i need it. A few days ago i was so scared to do a lesson plan. But what i did was just keep it in his hands. Then i was able to do my lesson plan with so much joy. I am so blessed and excited i was able to do it.
Community Service day April 10, 2019 was so special to me it was my last one. I was able to be in a group of people that really love the Lord with all their hearts. The Leader Grace has a great heart. Here Co-Leader Katie is so special in my life. What did we do with community service day? What we were are able to do is help the community by throwing away trash and also just being able to talk to the community. At one point of the day a lady came up to me and said to me “Thank you so much for helping the community. We were are able to get a team picture. I have not laughed so much with the people on my team. They are so special in my heart. We also were also able to do was clean a lot of side walks. A lot of people were thanking us. But we know in our heart we are doing it for the Lord. We are all called to serve. Being a servant means being able to get down and duty and be used by the Lord.
1 Peter 4:10
GOD HAS GIVEN EACH OF YOU A GIFT FROM HIS GREAT VARIETY OF SPIRITUAL GIFTS. USE THEM WELL TO SERVE ONE ANOTHER.
We want to be a servant we need to allow ourself not to be afraid of what can happen in our heart. If God has given a gift of leading then we need to use it for his glory.
I am very excited to what the Lord has for me in the next season of my life.
In life, there are going to be people that are going to leave you. But I feel my best friend that will always be there when I need someone to cry too will be my dog. My dog Nico is so soft, and he loves me. When I get home from college, he is always there to say hello with a big kiss and just jumping with full of joy. When I just need a vast my dog will give it to me. He will comfort me when I need to cry and just come up to me and kiss me and tell me that everything will be okay. He will be messy, but I am okay with that. That is the reason for having a dog. That through all the dirty things of taking care of the dog. On the inside, it is such a joy to be able to take care of an animal that you love and care for. Some people will not understand why until you have a dog in your life. From the moment you come into my life, I have so much joy in my life also with the Lord in my life. The Lord puts animals in our life to help our journey in life. With us being able to take care of them and act responsible with them.